No Dark Corners

The past few weeks have been a mire of schoolwork! As I go through what could be the most difficult segment of my Undergraduate experience, I've been trying to hold on to my greatest commitment: Jesus. It's been rough, particularly now that business has allowed for parts of my sin nature to surface once more. Have you even encountered the same problem over and over again, not being able to make head nor tail of it? I'm right there this week. I'm so sick of myself, and the way that I approach life, but I feel like every time I throw down my life, I make it further away from my sins, but I just... can't... break free. So tonight, I came to a realization while looking up passages which concern prayer for my Herm class, and found something I'm not sure I've seen before: Luke 11:34-36. Part of this concerns the eyes, and what I allow myself to see, which in turn devastates my heart. What I choose to do with my eyes can wind up filling my entire body with darkness, and then I wonder why I am so distant from my Lord. I realize now that I can't possibly be the man that I'm meant to be if I don't first learn how to regulate what I observe with my eyes. Pray that I could soon be filled with light, and that my life would radiate the Light that lives in me.

Mercy, Pity, Peace, and Love

I knew in August that this was going to be a life-changing semester. I just had a feeling that God was going to direct me into my calling. And here in the first days of October it seems as though that feeling has been relieved. Through prayer and faith, combined with a multitude of positive signs, Jessica and I are convinced that we are destined for the mission-field. We have no idea where, or when, or even how--- But we know that one day we will be in a different culture, sharing the Gospel of Jesus Christ as our life's work. The two of us are very excited as we are awaiting the time when we find out where we are going. It is a struggle not just to drop out of school and go now, but I know that what I am learning at CIU will one day help me in the mission field, and so I remain. Pray for us as we seek the Lord's will in these matters.

A Rough Week Going, A Rough Week Coming

Just for starters, I'm in the perfect mood to watch Dead Man, with Johnny Depp. Grim, just the way movies should be. Without spoiling it: The deer scene really bothers me.

But on to the subject of the last two weeks... I've been holding on for dear life. Hermaneutics, ie. my second girlfriend, has really been taking up a lot of my time. It's just been obscene, not to mention all the homework for my other five classes. So...uh...yeah, it's been hard to find time to spend with God, which seems really stupid, as my entire second major in college has to do with studying His Word and experiencing life with Him... that bugs me. So no deep emotional woes tonight! Just a slow, quiet evening of wondering why the heck I even started a blog to begin with, because this is quite stupid. Who honestly cares about the mundane things that I do? Or the not-so-well thought out truths that I would convey otherwise. Oh well, I guess my mom will always read these, no matter how stupid they get.